my life as told by...me

so like its been two years!!! Jack will be three years old next month and life is crazy different since I last wrote in this. I got married August 2007. Patrick is a marine and I think he just realized I get what I want and he will do anything to make me happy. He is leaving on saturday for North Carolina for 3 whole months! I am going to school at Kellogg Community College for early childhood education and I love the fact the my school has a cereal brand in its name. I do not qualify for financial aid in the fall but I do have the opportunity to get a part-time KCC staff job! This is sweet because I am able to go to school for free! I am living in Battle Creek (the cereal capital of the world) and loving it! We have a house with two bedrooms and hopefully the second will not be spare room for long but the "baby's room". of course that will be on hold while patrick is away. but a girl can dream. We adopted two cats. Gangsta is a fat and and P. Kitty is just retarded! I love P. Kitty but Gangsta drives me nuts!!!! Maybe I will be able to keep this up for a long time now since things are not too crazy. Its spring break for my school and all the students but me. I have been stuck in school working. My boss, Dawn, pointed out that student workers can work 39 hours over spring break and made it known that she expected Joy and Me to be there as much as possible. Im sorry but I have a crap load of homework to catch up on and my husband is leaving on saturday and she wants me to work?!? ive done 24 hours this week and i am going in tomorrow morning for an hour! 1 Stinking hour! seriously! she needs to get real. My teacher came in to talk to her about me and getting time to do my homework and she still isnt letting me be. I cannot wait until I have the permanent position! I can tell her Im off the clock and I do not have to work anymore.

Current Location: the dining room/office
Current Mood: drained

pretty sure its been forever since i have written. im loving school right now. its the main reason i havent been able to update. i just dropped spanish...im sad about that but i knew one of the languages was going to be dropped. i like french but im not too sure whats being said or going on. its ok i can catch up. my teacher said she is willing to work with me on it. my appeal went through...but you may have guessed that considering im taking classes. oh at bronco bash i got to meet johnny from the real world! um....the leak in my wall will be fixed tomorrow!

im moving tomorrow!!!!!!

so i went to Donovans housewarming party. pretty sure i spent the whole evening with tom because Donovan was kinda ignoring me. i get that it was his party and he had to talk to everyone but i felt really left out. to make things worse....when he was introducing everyone he was like and this is....whats your name again? he was joking around but it kinda made me feel really uncomfortable at that moment. something has been bothering him all weekend and i asked him what it was and he would say nothing or his ear was bothering him. tom told me two nights ago that he was told that donovan was ignoring me all night and it was to make me mad. i left a message and in IM for donovan saying that im really hurt by the way i was treated and that i think we should stop seeing each other and be friends. last night he was online and said he lost his phone and i asked him if it was true that he was ignoring me to make me mad and he said no and wanted to know who said that. he said he will call me tonight so we can talk about things. i told him i do like him and i didnt want things to end but i was really hurt and i will not put up with that again. so we will see what happens tonight.

on a happier note...i saw pirates last night! i went with tom and i know he likes me but right now i know either donovan is lying or tom is. why are guys like this? i thought only girls act like this. i really hope everything works out with donovan because i really do like him.

its been forever! ok so ive been super busy with work and i was able to find time to go camping with sonovan and his parents. it was so fun.we did a ton of fishing and i actually cleaned a fisH! yes i actually did it. so i really like him alot, Donovan that is...not the fish. i feel so comfortable with him like i have known him my whole life and there is never a boring moment. like when we went to his friends house and went out on the boat he and scott were goofing off and the ended up knocking a grill over the side of the boat. well donovan went in for it but went too deep and ruptured his ear drum. yeah most people would be like well hes got another ear to hear out of but he doesnt. he has one good ear and that would be the one that got messed up. he was thinking it was just water in the ear but around 12:30 at night or morning depending on how you look at it, i ended up taking him to the emergancy room because he was in so much pain. this was over a week ago and hes still in a ton of apin so hes going to the doctors today for it. oh and yesterday he got a puppy! im going to his house on saturday because he is havong a housewarming party. if you want to talk to me at anytime you should call my cell. which will be another journal entry about the new phone (same number) and hthe john michael montgomery concert. jack is howling and i need to go to work now. well actually 5 minutes ago. bye

Current Location: ymca pool (i will be there for an hour and then back here)
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: kenny chesney

so its been forever since my last update.  sorry.  pretty sure this past week has been super boring until this weekend.  friday Donovan came over and we went to the mall.  i got a super cute top! then i called tia and asked if she wanted to go to beach with us and i told her to call kent so he can go too.  so we drove down to the beach and watch the sunset.  it was soo amazing.  i had so much fun and it was soo pretty!  there is nothing better than watching the sunset at the beach.  the water wasnt too bad but getting out was freezing.  i was the only one to go in but it was so worth it.  the waves were fun.  saturday Donovan and i went to do laundry.  pretty sure that was fun but i was really tired.  then after we finished we drove back to my parents house.  i got a new phone (same number).  its way too cute!  you can change the cover of it so it can match your outfit!  i dont think that was the real reasoning behind it but it works for me.  after we got the phone we got ready to go to the John Micheal Montgomery concert.  we parked in VIP and mom got really good seats for disabled people.  the tickets were lawn seats but my new roommate Nicole works at DTE so she got mom the best seats for it.  Nicole moved Donovan and i from lawn seats to about row 15ish.  then after a bit she moved us up to row 4.  i thought this was amazing and i have never sat that close to the stage at any show i have been to.  but then she moved us up to front row!!!!!  it was sooooooooo amazing!!!!!!!!!!!  you could see the sweat on his face...which is gross but its still super cool that we were that close!  i absolutely loved watching donovan's face because i could tell he was crazy excited about it but trying to hide it.  it was really cute.  both donovan and i fell asleep in the car on the way home.  at about 11:30 we decided we were hungry and went to Meijer for something for dinner.  we got frozen pizzas, pop, and then the things we needed like new toothbrushes.  mom likes to use mine so everytime i go home i end up getting a new one.  matt got a new ipod so i got his old one!  how sweet is that?!?  we made dinner and ate then joined my brother downstairs and watched cool runnings.  yeah...i fell asleep.  donovan said i was snoring.  how embarassing is that?!?  but i really dont care.  he was so sweet and got my pillows for me.  i didnt wake up until i heard this really loud crash on the floor upstairs and i guess when we set up the cot for donovan we didnt have the legs completely pulled out so he sat down and it collapsed!  today donovan and i took forever getting ready...wait no it was actually just donovan taking forever to get ready.  dad was asking him to look at the truck and the van and all i wanted to do was go to the waterpark.  that was the original plan....we would wake up and go.  yeah after looking at the cars for about 45 minutes we finally got to go.  i saw matthew and i was way excited!  i miss everyone there and i really miss working there.  we left early so we could have more time here in kzoo.  we went to cheeseburger in paradise and pretty sure i have enough left overs for the week.  linda called and said i didnt have to work until 9 tonight because bob had the kids for the evening so they could do kylie's birthday.  i got the kids in bed around 10 which is way too late for any of them.  well i am going to go to bed now.

Current Location: linda's house watching the kids
Current Mood: energetic
Current Music: on again tonight by trent willmon

so its the first of two nights that kenny is here for concerts....im going to..none of the shows this summer.  i hate this.  thats all i wanted and i cant see him.  oh well life isnt always great.  but i did meet a great guy thanks to cole.  we will see where it goes.  hes really sweet and hes a lot like me but in a good way.  i feel completely comfortable talking to him and i know friendship is there.  but then there is an attraction to each other thats more than friendship.  well pretty sure im really sad about the whole concert thing or i could so go on for hours about one of the greatest guys ive met so far.  but then again you most likely dont care much. oh and pretty sure i have to work next weekend which is so not cool.

Current Location: in my room sitting at my desk
Current Mood: disappointed
Current Music: kenny chesney

so yesterday tia and i were driving to the Y to work out and we saw a turkey! actually tia almost hit a turkey. we were laughing about it forever. i was like hit the turkey! we can have it for dinner and tia was like ewww. i then said thanksgiving is early this year. i basically came up with a million things we could do with it. after we worked out tia had to go to work. she got sent home early and we decided to go to south haven. we spent like 2 1/2 hours at the beach. we made a sea turtle and a shark out of sand. everyone walking by thought it was really cute. i have decided that the beach would be the perfect place to take me for a date......so for any of you reading this....this would be a major hint.

Current Location: my living room floor
Current Mood: relaxed
Current Music: summertime by kenny chesney

so tonight i was over at harleys house and i left at 9. pretty sure i didnt feel important and i am not going to put up with it!

Current Mood: pissed off

so pretty sure o got a green card today! my mexican name is Jose boobage....ask nicole. long story. i guess i need it to get into the basement at our new apartment. we wont move until august 1st but i still have it. pretty sure our carpet smells funny. i dont know why. love you all.

Current Location: living room floor in our apartment
Current Mood: silly

so last night tia ans i went to big boys because i had a craving for the oreo mud pie they have.  yeah they were out!  i was so sad.  i ended up getting the hot fudge cake which was really disappointing.  oh well next time i will go elsewhere for my cravings.

Current Mood: disappointed

so i havent written in forever!  on monday tia and i went swimming at the Y and there was a guy looking at me.  well it turned out i knew him!  it was kyle from the guys high school swim team.  we decided that we should hang out before he goes home for the summer.  tuesday he came over and we had a ton of fun.  i think we started 5 movies and talked the whole time.  wednesday mom and dad came out for Phantom of the Opera.  mom couldnt believe dad and i kept it from her for over two months.  she also couldnt believe i got her 2nd row tickets!  it was so great.  i really enjoyed the show.  after mom and dad left kyle came over again to hang out.  it was a nice relaxing evening.  thursday i think was the saddest day.  kyle was going home.  i sold my books back and it was really close to 5:30 when kyle called to see if he could stop by to say bye.  i said yes and i ended up 5 minutes late for work which is actually 25 minutes before i really had to be there.  Linda was in a bad mood and it was not fun.  she was extremely short with me because i didnt want to pick the kids up from school.  i told her i was helping move my friends out and she was like "well i needed the sleep and i didnt get it"  well too bad if you want me to pick the stupid kids up then pay me more.  they are not my kids and she really needs to spend time with them.  the kids and i had a great night.  friday was a blast!  jackie and i had been talking about going to a show at a coffee house and i wasnt sure til i got my schedule.  well it turned out i could go so tia and i drove to holland.  we got there at 5:30 and Hope's spring fling was still going on.  well i had to use the bathroom so we all went into the chapel and we were following Jackie and she walked into the mens room!  yeah i always check doors and i think she will too from now on. (sorry jackie, i had to tell it was really funny)  well we got back outside and ended up walking around downtown holland.  we went into this super cute store and i saw the cutest lamp in the world!  it was a lifeguard chair with the shade as the umbrella!  it was soooo cute!  i think it would look super great in my room.  then we decided that it was time for the show and went to it.  we were early so we walked to ben and jerry's and got drinks.  i got limeade and then i saw this island fishing drink.  it had coconut in it so i had to try it.  jackie and i shared it.  both of us are fans.  so we walked back to the coffee house and watched josh wilson.  hes really good and we got his cd and a t-shirt.  we took about a million pics of jackie and josh because they werent working right.  her camera is really slow (sorry jackie its true).  my camera ended up breaking out there so saturday morning i went and got a new one!  i love it but i dont know how to work it completely.  then i went to yard sales and i found a washer and dryer that works but i didnt have anywhere to store it.  the lady said she would hold it until august and i can pay for them when i pick them up!  so everything is working out for the move.  tia and i went to cheeseburger in paridise and i got jerk chicken!  i was soooo excited.  well thats about all for today.

Current Mood: crazy

Ok so jack is 4 lbs and will be a year old in exactly a month.  he is half the weight he should be.  we asked a lady at petsmart what we should be feeding him and she recommended canned food.  pretty sure he inhaled it and loved it.  his little belly is sticking out and its sooooooo cute!  plus we were running around outside today so he was tired from that.  he just kinda flopped down and that was about it for him.  the running outside wore him out and then he ate all his new food.  he is such a crazy little guy.

so this weekend im going home to Royal Oak.  matt and i will be looking at apartments for him.  because of this all this drama went down and everything got taken out on me.  why is it my fault when i live 2 1/2 hours away.  grrrr.

Current Mood: cranky

why do people always call me during the real world?!? all i ask for is to be left alone tuesday nights 10-10:30! is that too much to ask for?

Current Mood: pissed off

so pretty sure tia and i wanted to move like crazy!  so today we walked to the tanning place and starbucks then came back here and got ready to look at apartments.  we went to lake forest and decided that is where we will be moving.  we fell in love with a really nice one.  its kinda strange how things work out.  nicole found me on myspace yesterday and said she ws coming back to western this fall and i was thinking if tia doesnt move with me i need another roomie.  well i asked nicole her plans for living arangements and she said on campus so i asked of she would want to live with tia and i.  after looking at the apartment (3 rooms) i got a response that she wants to and so we talked and its settled we are geting the apartment and a new roommate!  all three of us are so excited its hard to think about anything else.

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: brad paisley and kenny chesney (what else?)

ok so this weekend ken came out to visit me!  i had a great time.  i was making dinner saturday and he called and said he was having car trouble so he would be a little late.  once he got here we ate and decided we were going to watch we were soldiers in my room so tia could watch her tv show.  after the movie was over we putin narnia because we werent tired yet.  just before the battle part we decided to turn it off and go to bed.  for some reason at 5 am we both were wide away so we talked for like two hours.  we made breakfast and got ready for church.  we were looking through the hymn book and talking about which was our favorite song and i found the old rugged cross which is my all time favorite.  i told him i havent heard the song in well over a year and i really wanted to sing it.  we didnt.  pretty sure during church and the little old lady who always sits behind me started her story again that i have heard about 100 times already.  after church she said to ken "i like you and your littlw sweetheart too,  shes going to be my friend".  it was so funny and cute.  he was like yeah shes great.  way to play it off ken!  after church we walked up tp cold stone to get ice cream.  it was nice.  i love listening to him talk because normally he isnt much of a talker.  i was super sad that he had to go home.  we had communion last night at church and we were singing every song in the book around the old rugged cross but not it.  i laughed at told tia that i had been talking about the song like all day and i figures i wouldnt get to sing it.  then pastor said we were going to sing it!  normally at my old church we would sing just the first and last verse of the song but we sang all four verses!!!  talk about my night getting better.  then the older man who normally sits in front of us got up to sing.  he sang in the garden and it was such a blessing for me.  i love hearing him sing.  i would stay in the morning to listen to him practice and to finally hear him sing in church was just amazing.  i had a wonderful weekend and i hope ken comes out to see me again soon.  oh and i went tanning today!

Current Mood: content
Current Music: check yes or no, george strait

pretty sure its been a week since i was home!  ok so last saturday dad and i went to the farmers market in Detriot.  that was fun.  then around noon Ken came over.  we went to the zoo!  i havent been there in years but it was a blast.  it was snowing at first and it ws so cold.  it was so cute how excited he was over the monkeys.  outside the artic circle (the polar bear exibit) he kissed me!  it was the whole butterflies in the stomach, weak in the knees, cant stop smiling thing.  pretty sure i wanted that kiss for soooo long.  like back in the days when jason and i were dating and i flew to WI to see him for his birthday.  ken went with him to pick me up at the airport and i was like.....hes super cute.  then at mbbc we hung out because we had jason in common and i knew i was falling for him.  so anyways...back to saturday.  the rest of the time we were there he was holding my hand and there would be a kiss here and there.  it was so nice.  when we ot back to my house we watched harry potter and the goblet of fire.  it was like the best because we were all cuddleing on the couch in the basement.  dad made dinner for us.  he make roasted chicken, mashed potatoes, and carrots.  pretty sure the carrots were so gross but ken liked them.  later that evening brit and dan came over and we played risk.  i was sad to see the evening end when everyone had to go home.  since then i have been busy with work and school.  im kinda sad because kenny chesney tickets go on sale today at 10 and i dont think i will be getting any.  i really want to go.

Current Mood: disappointed

so i have a test today in 30 years war.....pretty sure i have no idea what is going on in class right now.  i sit there and try to listen but its all crazy and i dont get it.  i have decided i do not want to be a history teacher anymore.  the problem is i dont know what else i want to be.  mom said a vet but pretty sure thats not fun.  i may end up doing my "back-up" plan if i cant decide....selling sunglasses on the beaches of Jamaica.  its a dream....  if anyone knows something im good at please let me know.  and dont say history because pretty sure i am NOT good at it at all.  i have work for the next three night but i am not sure what days i work.  maybe bob will actually take the kids like for the whole weekend....its his weekend and when he has then they stay one night and come home the next day.  he doesnt even fight to keep them there.  its not fair to the kids and not really fair to me.  yeah im scheduled to work but its his responsibility to take care of the kids every other weekend.  i cant make plans or anything.  dont get me wrong, i love my job but its not fair that everyone got to go somewhere for spring break and i went to work.  now the kids may go on spring break with linda and that would be nice because i dont have to work and i would be getting paid but i still cant go anywhere because i have class.  i really cant wait until summer.  i am signed up for algebra 1 for the first summer semester but i am not sure if i really want to take it.  its everyday for an hour.  not fun at all.  but i can get it done in half the time and it is a smaller class so i have a better learning enviornment.  i also do not need to pay for a parking pass beause i can walk everyday.  tia and i are also looking at apartments and stuff and i was thinking maybe the school will cover my rent.....i did qualify for a grant for room and board for on-campus living but they also will supply a grant for off campus living.  i will be checking into that tomorrow.  if i can get it i will not need to "work as hard" to have a place to stay and i can focus on my studies more.  that sounds believeable right?  wish me luck.

Current Mood: frustrated

ok so its taken about forever for me to find the time to sit and write about my weekend. friday Harley picked me up and gave me three roses! it was the sweetest thing ever. we went to his uncles house. its like way in the country and it was so nice to be away from my life in k-zoo. harley and his uncle played pool like on and off all weekend and i met a lot of his family. saturday was so nice. the sun was out and it was warm. we came back here and picked up jack and took him out there. that was a blast. sunday harley took me out on the 4-wheelers and i got all muddy. it was so fun! harley's cousin david took jack and at first jack was afraid of it. once they got going he liked it. its funny how you like someone and when youre around them a lot more you either like them more or you like them less. its too bad i actually started to like him alot more. pretty sure he doesnt feel the same way anymore which hurts but its his choice. the only thing im worried about is actually not talking again. i do not want to lose him as a friend. he is a great guy and even if we are not ment to be together i still think being friends would mean the world to me. oh well. i kinda feel rejected....

Current Mood: rejected
Current Music: something like a broken heart~~hanna-mceuen